As I close out another year, I find myself taking time to go back over my diary, my thoughts, my posts, my work and my life in general. I am surprised (not sure why) at how quickly another year has gone by. They go faster and faster! Gone are the days as a child when there seemed to be an endless wait for birthdays, holidays, summer vacation, or even the end to a boring day! No more.
My step daughter gave me a book called Positive Matters last Christmas and for the year I have lived with a word a week. Well, most weeks. I did lose track during the summer. It was fun to do this. Choose a word. Live with it, write about it, meditate on it. Today I chose one just to close out 2015 and begin the new year. The word I randomly selected is “SERENE”
The definition is bright, clear, unobscured, calm, placid, undisturbed.
So am I a serene person? I think the outside world would say yes. My husband, a few very close friends and my honest self would say NO. I would like to be a serene person but I am not. Behind the facade of a confident, educated, extrovert lies a “glass half-empty” personality that appears confident and secure. To be even more honest, I envy serene people. My mom and her mother before her being two. They have a mysterious inner power that seems to radiate out of them and have a calming effect on anyone else in the room with them. The attract people like magnets too.
So I am going to make a promise to myself as I walk into 2016. I am going to plant a serenity seed in my spiritual garden. I will water it. Nurture it. I will see if I can cultivate some within myself.
Can you really teach an old dog new tricks? Yes I believe you can.
Happy New Year!